A piece of my heart is gone.
It wasn't painful to lose.
In fact, it was the opposite.
I was happy to give it away.
I would have given all of it if I could have.
But now, it's gone.
My heart beats but it isn't whole.
Not until I am back where I left it.
With every beat my heart whispers what it longs for.
For the smiles, for the joy, for the singing, the dancing.
For being there, loving the way we did.
I feel it crying out in my chest,
getting louder as I go further and further away.
Thump, thump, thump.
Haiti, Haiti, Haiti.
You have a piece of my heart.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Changed By Memories
Glimpses, flashes.
That's all I see.
A smile, a tear, a thought, a song.
I know I have changed, I don't doubt that.
But why?
When did it happen?
Was there one moment or has it been my whole life?
I can't remember, I don't understand.
Glimpses, flashes, moments, memories.
Now, suddenly, I am changed.
That's all I see.
A smile, a tear, a thought, a song.
I know I have changed, I don't doubt that.
But why?
When did it happen?
Was there one moment or has it been my whole life?
I can't remember, I don't understand.
Glimpses, flashes, moments, memories.
Now, suddenly, I am changed.
Scared. Scarred.
It isn't easy, but I will admit it.
I am scared.
I have been hurt before, I don't want to again.
I wont let myself feel that joy, knowing the pain that follows.
I don't let myself believe that it will last, I let that happen before.
Every time I see you, I see myself crying on my bathroom floor.
When you smile, I see mascara stains on my pillow.
Part of me wants to believe that this time will be different, but how can I be sure?
I tell myself that your sweet, but then again so was he.
I want to believe that you wont break my heart, but I can't take the risk.
This isn't easy for me but I'll admit it.
I'm scared of you.
I am scared.
I have been hurt before, I don't want to again.
I wont let myself feel that joy, knowing the pain that follows.
I don't let myself believe that it will last, I let that happen before.
Every time I see you, I see myself crying on my bathroom floor.
When you smile, I see mascara stains on my pillow.
Part of me wants to believe that this time will be different, but how can I be sure?
I tell myself that your sweet, but then again so was he.
I want to believe that you wont break my heart, but I can't take the risk.
This isn't easy for me but I'll admit it.
I'm scared of you.
You're acting like...
You're acting like:
You've never felt my touch, my kiss
You're calm as you handle this
You've never seen me laugh or cry
We've never had to say 'good-bye'
Like we've never said 'hello'
How could you let me go?
Like it isn't hard to walk away
When you told me you were here to stay
Can't you look me in the eye?
Can't you tell me why?
Then you said:
All I want is your touch, your kiss
That's why I can't handle this
You're the one who's seen me laugh and cry
That's why I can't say 'good-bye'
I just want to say 'hello'
I can't let you go
I wish I could just walk away
But I told you I was here to stay
Please don't look me in the eye
You can't see me cry
You've never felt my touch, my kiss
You're calm as you handle this
You've never seen me laugh or cry
We've never had to say 'good-bye'
Like we've never said 'hello'
How could you let me go?
Like it isn't hard to walk away
When you told me you were here to stay
Can't you look me in the eye?
Can't you tell me why?
Then you said:
All I want is your touch, your kiss
That's why I can't handle this
You're the one who's seen me laugh and cry
That's why I can't say 'good-bye'
I just want to say 'hello'
I can't let you go
I wish I could just walk away
But I told you I was here to stay
Please don't look me in the eye
You can't see me cry
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