When My Darling Said Goodbye

Canceled plans.
Broken promises.
Uncertainty.
Self-consciousness.
Laughter silenced.
Sunlight dimmed.
Memories made painful.
Love turned to grief.
Hellos to goodbyes.
Hopes become false.
Friendship ended.
Joy becomes heartbreak.
When my darling said goodbye.
Because my darling said goodbye.

Shouting

Shouting into nothing, praying you will hear me.
If you heard my voice in the distance would you be glad?
Perhaps you are doing the same but I cannot hear you.
If that is true, shout louder, I need to hear your voice.
Or maybe you stopped shouting and stopped listening.
I pray that isn't true.
I cannot bear to think that it is over for you.
I have to hope you are listening for me.
My voice is gone but I will never stop shouting.
Maybe someday you will hear my whisper.

Home?

How do you know where your home is?

Is it where you grew up?

Is it with your family?

Can it be be more than one place?

Can you make any place home?

Does anyone truly have one?

Or does everyone?

Is it where you have the happiest memories?

Is it where memories are yet to be made?

Where is home?

How do you know if you have one?

How Strange a Feeling

How strange a feeling, when your future becomes your present.

All that you have been planning, waiting for, arrives.

The time has come so fast but passed so slow.

You couldn't wait for this time but now you wish you didn't have to go.

Suddenly the past is more desirable than what was your future.

It is almost like none of it is happening, like a dream.

Once a kid wishing for the future, now an adult dreaming of the past.

How strange a feeling, when your future becomes your present.

Chimes

Time ticks by.
Slowly, painfully.
My heart thumping.
Like the chime of a grandfather clock.
Waiting.
The thumps and ticks get louder.
I am all too aware of the passing time.
Whether silence or noise around me.
All I hear is the thumping, the ticking.
No peace, just time passing.
Chimes like a grandfather clock, telling me my time is up.
We ran out of time.
Now, the thumping, the ticking.
Wishing I could have time back.
I wait for nothing as time ticks by.
Slowly, painfully.
Chimes of grandfather clocks.

When God Speaks (God's Love)

God, the Holy One, rescue me from my despair.
Don't hide Your face from me in my pain.
Lord of all creation, I do not deserve Your pity.
But have You not promised to never leave me nor forsake me?
Where have You gone, Lord?
Why would You leave me when I need You most?
I try to run to You, my stronghold, but I cannot find You.
Again and again I pray for deliverance from this pit of anguish.
But then you say to me,
"Child, I have not left you.
Despair has blinded you to My love.
Am I not a loving God?
Am I not a God who keeps his promises?
Child, My beloved, the trial is over, come to My arms,
bury yourself in my love, for it is infinite.
I will dry your tears, I will heal your wounds.
Beloved daughter, be at peace, despair no longer.
I do not wish pain upon you, My child, your every tear wounds Me.
Let Me help you, let Me love you.
Don't leave Me again, beloved, it breaks my heart.
Walk with Me in the light, build, with Me, My Glory.
My Kingdom is coming, My child, do not despair.
Your pain will end and there will be no more night, no more tears.
You will be with Me forever, in My embrace.
But for now, be strong and feed My sheep."

Hello Sometimes Goodbye

Sometimes I miss you when you're right in front of me.
Sometimes your laugh sounds like a goodbye.
Sometimes I feel far away when I'm in your arms.
Sometimes hello's predict goodbye's.
You think I'm joking when I frown at your departure.
If you only knew, darling.
What I wouldn't give to never say goodbye to you again.
Promise me we will never say goodbye.
Promise me, dear, that no goodbye is forever.
Sometimes, my dear, I feel your departure.
Sometimes goodbye sounds like it's over.
Because sometimesI miss you.
Sometimes hello.
Sometimes goodbye.