The Pain I Feel

How do you explain to others a pain you can't come to grips with yourself?
How to you express the sheer agony of not knowing life before the nightmare?
When suddenly the nightmare is all you know.
How do you tell someone the feeling of wanting to go somewhere, anywhere,
to escape, to have just one moment without worry or pain?
How do you escape yourself?
How do you help someone understand that you've lost hope?
Lost faith.
How do you tell yourself that this is your life now, there's no waking up from the nightmare?
How do you stop the constant reminders of life with no pain.
At least not this pain.
How small those worries and pains seem now.
Was there really a time when that's all that worried me?
That was the most pain? The most fear? The biggest heartache?
How do you tell yourself to keep going when you can feel the worst has yet to come?
How do you keep going when your whole life... hope... faith has been shattered?
How do you explain to someone that they don't know how you feel?
They should never know how this pain feels.
How can you ever be the same again?
The answer is you can't.